Yesterday Grandma and I talked of your "visit".She talked to a priest about it and he told her it was a vivid dream that seemed as though she was awake but in reality she was probably asleep.I had serious doubts from the minute she told me what you said and I still wonder did you 'appear' to grandma or was it a dream visit??? Whatever it was,it shows her own sadness and turmoil of losing you too.She wants to help me but she needs to help herself!!! She has the pain and sadness also.. All I know is I miss you so unbearably some days that I choke up and just feel the intense sadness and pain of wanting you back and just wish this was a bad dream..I let the tears stream down my face to let the feelings out.I am functioning in my life but up and down in moods.I LOve you so much Donny that it makes me happy and sad to look at your picture.I wish you were still here.