On Christmas Eve I was a lunatic-worried about Sophia being sick,hollering about the snow and people parking in front of our house and not getting plowed,stressing about shopping for last minute gifts,just nut!!!!!! Scott did 3/4 of the wrapping while I boxed things or gift bagged them as usual.I Hate wrapping!!!! Christmas Day I got up and we watched Matthew open his presents.He was happy and I felt comfort and joy and was peaceful inside.I cried as I wrote on your myspace as it was silenced by copyright and infrigement bullshit!! I finally got ready and the we all arrived at Grandma's at the same time except for Tony.I was so happy and felt your comforting presence my boy.We all enjoyed ourselves except poor Antonio.He and Juanita left because he has some GI virus.We all ate and toasted Grandma and Jay with the bottle of cheer we gave her.We took some cute pictures,watched the younger ones open gifts and laughed and talked crap..We only talked of you once when we told everyone of Rico's talking to you.I didn't cry because you were there with us ...I felt blessed and comforted and was at peace.You gave me that as a gift all day and I Thank You my LOve. You were even in pictures with us.My beautiful Angel Son.Shine on in our lives til we see you again.