My Son, I am still very up and down in my grief but I am really trying to be positive and move beyond the pain.Losing you was the single most painful event of my life and I don't want to be crabby about it ANYMORE!!!!!!! I want to say seeing you when I die is good enough but somedays I AM STILL SO ANGRY about it.... I MISS YOU!!!! I MISS YOU!!!! I am also thinking that it is like quitting an addiction...You feel ok for a while and then damn it hits you with a vengeance and you want it so bad you will do anything to have it. You are so LOved.. I am strong but so wounded.... I just want to do things to get healthy.. I LOve your dream visits.. Come again soon and give me some more hugs and kisses.. Someday baby we will be together. Until then help us all feel better.