My Son You are what I think about when I go to sleep and when I wake up and I am missing you so badly but am struggling to be happy for Matthew,Katie and Thalia because Christmas should be happy and not sad for them....I am crying now writing this to you and later on today we are going to Sophia's to eat and open presents so enjoy our happines and know that in our hearts we are feeling your absence... Love to you my baby and Merry Christmas...