Good morning LOve Well I look at your pictures and have such an aching need to have you here. I'm living my life but I carry the sorrow of losing you everywhere,everyday and hold it in until I am alone and then I will cry to release the pent in sadness.God Donny,people have no idea that sometimes when I am laughing or joking the sadness is right there below the laughter.I couldn't continue to live or function if I stayed sad and depressed about you all the time. Quite frankly I am a very strong person but your suicide rocked me to my core and you forever changed me.I will always carry you in my heart and that will affect everything I do and feel.I will always feel sadness with my joys because you won't be around for me to share them with you. If I am staring off in space it is thinking of you and one day I will do it with a smile remembering all the good times we had. I glance in the mirror or at window reflections hoping to see you and sometimes I thought I saw you for a second..My wish I guess is that I were a Psychic/Medium like Allison DuBois and that I could see and talk to you my baby boy.God this is so hard and I LOve you so much.................