I thought I had it all figured out, but i don't know anymore.I think of you often and eventually i think about how far apart we were when you left us.Talking to you on the phone on the day of my party, if I could know that would be the last time I could talk to you... I always took it for granted that you were there even when you were so far away.Mom, Sophia ,and I all struggle with your loss and I would tell you I love you,and miss you,and i was proud of you.