Well Donny tonight I am going to a grief support group to help me deal with this so I stop feeling so angry and sorry for myself..I fly off the handle so easily at people and I don't like that and I feel guilty after but can't apologize..I am angry at your leaving....So I want to take it out on people who say or do things that aggravate me..I just want to be normal again but I never will...I have this need to dig up your casket to see you again(I WON'T really do this)because I don't want you gone...I want you alive,I want to talk to you,I wanted to visit you in Mexico...I love you and I couldn't save you and I feel guilty for being angry at you that day... I MISS YOU!!