Hey Honey, You know when I am at work and someone is getting a procedure done because the pt had/HAS alcohol problems I think about you.I think you were spared some of the horrible health problems and diseases that go along with alcoholism.You also put yourself at risk sexually with HIV and AIDS possibly in your future...I think these things and am glad we didn't go through that with you because what we went through with you was enough.Your depression and all the suicide attempts,your getting drunk and taking your anger out on us and scaring us with the things you said you were going to do and then you made them come true..All you wanted (I guess) was to find a man to love you.\Your father and his side of the family were so selfish and didn't reach out and try to love and help you.At least that is how I see it.. Oh let's go to the funeral and show our respects but where the hell were they when you were struggling..NO where around... I may be angry and grieving but you just wanted your Dad to love you. He lived his life without worrying about you and I hope he regrets that and takes it to the grave.And what is even sadder is the you did the same thing to your daughter...Well let me tell you I am going to try and be there for her and try to help her not continue the cycle of neglect that your father started.I will do anything in my power to see that Tony,Sophia,Matthew,Katie or Thalia never turn out to be self-destructive in any way...I will give my last penny,my last drop of blood,whatever I can to help them. I could not help you and I will always wish I had done more but I can't say I didn't try because I did.