You made me very sad and angry right now and I have to go clean my house because I need to put my energy (I DON'T HAVE) into doing something positive to get rid of the negative-So I feel better....You are fine --I AM NOT..I am pissed off and feel frustrated that you did this to us all....You left us so sad and confused....You left us with so many questions and the need to have helped you and we feel we failed or feel guilty..At least that is what I feel and I don't like it.I have to TRY to make it better by trying to go on...Trying to do all the things like cleaning,laundry,helping Matthew with homework,etc.,etc. So I just need to tell you that you were selfish and caused a LOT of pain that we are still feeling--Right now -FUCK YOU for doing that to us and I am going to take my anger out on the dirt...